My biggest obstacle is myself. Specifically my attitude. More specifically my temper. To be even more specific it’s my lack of having any patience with anything. I want everything to happen now! I don’t want to wait years to be out of debt! I don’t want to read the entire bible in a year, I want to know it all now!
I have no patience with others. I want everyone to know and love me. I want them all to understand me. I want everyone to have patience and forgiveness for me even when I don’t for them.
I have some stupid attitudes, not conscious decisions I’m making mind you!
Something gave me pause today though, hours after I actually begin typing this up. Ken and I had yet another miscommunication over the wedding planning and that was about the last of my hoping this wedding would be nice. I started getting mad, furious, about to argue. Then shut my mouth and prayed.
My life will turn out the same way no matter how I feel on the inside. How I act on the outside reflects that though and I’m horrible at faking happiness.
Praying for God to fill me with peace did just that.
I’m at peace right now but I feel like I’m at a fork in the road and I don’t know where either path leads.